Friday, April 29

hmm... been sometime since i last blog le.. been into other ppl's blog... doesnt seems like many are bothered wif bloggin le ba.. lolx.. last time at skool nothin better to do, so blog blog blog.. now like the world is much more impt le.. lmaox..

hmm.. duno wad comes to mi.. ive been thinkin abt better ways to make a r/s a success wor.. haha... maybe can become a prof. in time to come?? lolx.. anyway, my new theory was abt the word GIRLFRIEND.. a girlfriend, a stead, is neither a friend nor a family.. yet, she's ur friend as well ur family.. hmm.. it realli depends how 1 see it ba...
she's not a friend cuz she's MORE den a friend.. there are things u wont tell a friend, but u will share wif her.. hopin she can help u soften the load..
she's a friend too... dun u ppl feel that at times, friend last longer den stead?? why is it so?? ponder it ba.. if u grab the geist in handling friendship and relationship, god noes when it will last.. lolx..
she's a family member.. maybe.. cuz u will share everything wif her.. u let her noe ur dumbest experience as well as scariest secrets.. u let her noe ur fear and concern as u are sure that she will be wif u.. u hav total trust and honesty..
but she's not ur family member!! at least not yet.. haha... some ppl arent realli close to their family as much as friends ba.. they rather approach their friends in times of trouble den to let their parents noe... they rather share their experience and jokes wif friends rather wif family members, assumin they might not appreciate u as u are... (juz my 5-cents view..)

well.. to sum up everything, in order to last a relationship, the most impt thing is flexibility.. change on the correct situation.. most ppl can sae, but they cant do it.. cuz at that nick of time, things juz arent goin right in the head.. im trying myself.. hhaa..

went to sentosa wif yee 2 daes again to sun-tan.. onli the 2 of us wor.. hahaa.. guess it was pretty fun ba.. prepared some tidbits (boy can she eat.. lolx) and total of 3.5 litres of water... it realli a veri good experience wor.. she can realli swim veri well.. but mi leh.. siao liao.. abit nia tired le.. even trapping water oso so tedious 4 mi.. wonder how can i survive if singapore flood... sianx..

now in skool wor.. later goin to work le.. haix.. home's modem still not fixed.. missed out alot of online games that could hav been played at nite.. *sob sob..

that's all for 2dae ba..

p.s. goh haben notified mi sia.. wonder if i manage to pass anot.. hmm...
~me~ at 4:12 PM

Monday, April 25

in skool library lar.. no choice.. home com not fixed yet.. haix.. if not everynite can play lancraft le.. sad... *weep..

napfa last week.. was a pretty good outcome ba.. didnt noe im still so fit.. hahaha.. actually planned wif yaoming they all to train b4 napfa, in the end, pretty much slack all the way.. den the dae napfa came, oso half-heartedly go.. den yaoming put mi aeroplane again.. haix.. den take napfa alone lor.. these are the results wor...

sit ups: 49, A, 5 pts...
standing broad jump: 233cm, C, 3 pts...
sit and reach: 41cm, C, 3 pts...
pull ups: 7, C, 3pts...
shuttle run: 9.95 sec, A, 5 pts...
2.4km rum: 10.46 min, B, 4 pts...

not bad wor... pass wif gold... 23 pts.. hahaha... somemore wifout trainin.. phew.. currently the onli bad points i hav is my poor eye sight ba.. hmm...

army sent mi letter le wor.. goin skool 2, tekong camp on the 8th sept.. but that was wifout napfa.. i received the letter b4 i take my napfa lar.. den now duno if army will send another letter that will defer mi for another month anot...

been realli close to yee nowadaes wor.. hahaha.. meet everydae go work wad.. looks like i found the ONE right on my 1st.. hahaha... so heng rite?? that's wad my sis and bros sae.. haha... cuz money i oso dun hav... look i oso dun hav.. future oso so blur.. kaox... realli takes alot of luck to get yee.. hahah.. i hav no choice but to admit, realli heng ba.. dOtz...

at work leh.. as usual... last nite fana VIP room... den another "great" family.. mi need to look after kids again... haix.. wonder why always gana family guest.. diao lor.. gt tips oso cannt keep.. haix..

hmm... 2dae at bus, i sae this sticker that goes "casiNO"... seems like another campaign against the government frm openin a casino... diao lor.. WTF wif these ppl... frankly speakin.. im a pro-casino guy... sorri to those who are anti to it.. i realli believe that openin casino will increase the revenue as well as create jobs for ppl.. wad are the craps wif ppl sayin that "singapore long clear history will be erased..." etc etc.. my foot lar.. to tell the truth, i felt that most of these campaign are either ppl against PAP or simply the bookies who are monopolising the underground casino in singapore... so, aniwae... go casino go!! haahha...

that's all for 2dae ba...
~me~ at 4:28 PM

Monday, April 11

now in skool library... mondae wor.. wanted to pack-up my stuff in the studio lor..

basket.. home's internet still cant be use.. must be my modem's fault!! i re-install all program lor.. ended up losing my password for the broadband as well... DIE.. haix.. now realli sian to the max...

yesterdae top prize for 4d is 5020... f*** to the max again!!! my admin no. was 0205029... den i bought 5029, and my mom bought 0205... kao.. $2 big $2 small... if win 10K!!!!!!! haix...

at work leh.. nowadaes gana VIP rooms again... basket.. i noe my service not bad, but dun hav to put mi in there wad.. it is like, so cramp and requires tip-top service.. yesterdae more xiong... 2 vip rooms are connected into 1 for a total of 23 ppl... among the 23, i need 5 baby chairs as well as 3 double-stacked chairs for the kids!!! basket.. although i hav my ways wif kids, but i realli hate it when the moms' sae "come, give way for UNCLE to put the dishes..." harlow.. im onli 20 lor.. kaox.. call mi uncle.. where's ur manners?? hahahah~
another thing i hate doin VIP is that tips are not allowed to be kept.. im doin the hardwork, yet the tips are bein kept in the tip-box for the full-timers to be distributed at the end of the month.. f*** lor.. somemore the tips im receiving are ard 20 bucks to 50 bucks... kao... see these money fly to other's pocket realli isnt wad some1 as stingy as mi can take it...

haix.. recently had alot of memories coming back.. like 1 on 1 in the printing room, 1 on 1 in mrt on the way home, in groups skating at east-coast (or was it west coast)... come to think of it, we realli dun hav chemistry or am i juz an idiot?? wadever it is, i realli feel inferior.. hahaha... darn..

gana "head-shot" by my sis yesterdae.. i was teasin her that she look so tan and dark, hard to find bf... den she retort that im juz lucky.. she was wondering why yee would choose mi wor.. look leh, i cant make it.. there are many better faces out there.. money leh.. oso cannt make it.. yee has a way better background... so in the end, wad hav i to attract her?? to hav such a gf?? i wondered.. guess im realli juz lucky... hhaa..

last nite yee called to "relieve" some stress she had due to end-of-year exam lor.. kao.. her pms was earlier by a week!!! hhaa.. now den i noe i was givin her stress.. lolx.. i think i told alot of ppl i realli admire smart girls and they realli gain ALL of my attention.. more den the way they present themselve or even their look... den it happen that i was browising the sp-webhosting and came by yumei's.. den why yee saw all those distinction and president's honour, she began to give self-imposed stress.. haha.. (p.s. yee noes abt my crush.. diao.. why should i hide it since it's already a past??)
dear.. if u are readin this.. relax.. dun compare lar.. but den, u better study well wor.. hahaha... still the same words, if we cant be real stable be4 i go NS, i will give up no matter wad.. it is better to be painful emotionally den i have to suffer both mentally and physically in the army.. im realli a weak fellow... lolx...

enuff of pessimism.. (was it spell like dat??) this few daes realli no-life wor.. wake up ard 11 plus, eat lunch, den go arcade.. but my arcade life change alot ever-since wif yee... from poly year1, ive been workin part-time, thus hav pretty flexible pocket money... thus i frequent the arcade, even using some games as part of my concept in design.. ive always been pretty lonely ba.. gana rejected too.. hahaha... thus stayed in the noisy place to pull myself away.. can sae goin arcade or even watchin movie alone isnt weird for mi ba...
but when yee's presence of my life, things began to change ba.. i nv noe girls like to go arcade too.. i mean, it is realli too noisy ba.. thus, we've been goin arcade alot lor.. so much so that now that i go arcade alone, there seem to be a lost... a lost in wad to play.. a lost in "why am i here"... kaox... "wo xiang wo ke yi yi ker ren shen huo..."

oh yea.. took up drivin lesson le.. finally gt the money wor... but hor.. dunno is bad luck or wad.. the basic-thoery paper is set on fridae the 13... may... kaox.. after that dunno wanna take private or skool... although i noe that private sure is much cheaper den skool by almost 50%... but i realli wan a secured license.. not much time left le... at the same time need to study for advance theory.. haiyoyo... guess realli not easy ba..

that's all folks..
~me~ at 12:44 PM

Thursday, April 7

haix.. as usual.. modem at home not fixed yet.. thus cannt do anithing at home... dunno wanna buy a new modem or juz leave it as it is... currently, i can see that muz be modem spoil lar.. cuz the adsl and current light are on when i pludge the modem in, and com oso scan it.. juz that they sae the device version not correct or something.. den i oso havin a hard time findin the modem's cd... dunno throw until where le.. sometime realli sian ba.. hmm...

now at SP library.. todae was suppose to hav the portfolio review 1 lor.. but den, goh sae we will be notify by phone.. haix.. if fail 1 subject will hav to go for "summer camp".. if subjects.. den can forget it le.. i feel i hav to come back for intech lor.. cuz attendacnce and work arent showing any interest in it.. last time wif liang already stuggling... den wif seb, abit interest liao.. now that cannon.. haiz... i skip his lesson all the way ba.. still can remember the 1st time i show my discontent abt his lessons.. that time alot ppl hav common feel, and we even talk behind his back.. but then they all keep to themselves.. sorri lor.. im that the kind of person that can keep fire in my stomach.. thus i juz blurt out.. nick did show his displeasure lar.. but, who cares?? since this is the end liao, i might as well make it clear, i dun like him at all... lolx...

haa... realli realli.. since this is the end liao, i'll put the list of ppl i dislike as well as those that ive been keepin a torch ba... hahaha...

list of dislike:
-nic (wad's wif his attitude?? so wad if he has high score or even older den all of us?? always tryin to infiltrate the "correct" mindset.. ba... save it for himself.. if not for his mental prob, i would hav been extremely nasty to him.. dun blame mi for bein so direct...)
-von (erm... actually not realli dislike ba.. juz that she's pretty loud at times.. although she's some1 i can talk to, but i felt that she's abit "overboard" whenever mood swing ba... erm.. her loudness was 1 of the reason i went the other end...
-HQ (he was the guy i aim at during year1 ba.. that time dunno why.. maybe his "seh" ba.. den oso view him as rival to get better grades.. upon winnin him, sian wif design liao...)

i noe alot ppl dun like mi as well.. nvm lor.. i noe i frequently mood swing too... lolx.. den will find some to quarrel or simply isolate myself... wad to do, i like bein a lone ranger.. hhaa...

kkz.. now the list of ppl ive (i had) carried a torch b4... lolx...
-grace (hhahaha.... dun ask mi why.. maybe becuz she's at 02, im 01, den 0102 no other "can-see" girl liao... whahahaa..)
-duckie (lolx.. this girl everi1 noes ba.. even sneak at nite to catch a glimpse of her... so childish of mi... lolx.. ok lor... i explain be4 to certain ppl i like girls wif brains liao... lmaox.. somemore long hair, somemore wear specs, somemore cute.. can lar...)
-stitch (erm... this 1 i didnt noe until the end of year3 ba.. dunno why.. juz miss the way she scream... hahaha... realli look like stitch... her "loudness" was diff frm von's ba... more acceptable to an extent... still remember the time she carry the baby to put on my head while im doin model... she thought i was angry ba.. nah... i was juz actin cool... need to use alot of brain cells on the model...)

--- now yee beside mi liao.. better keep the rest on eps. 2... wahhaha.. she slap mi ar.... my ulcer... ---
~me~ at 3:35 PM

Wednesday, March 23

hmm.. been REALLY long since i last blog ler.. ever since started to chiong proj. ba... somemore now my home PC cannt access internet... more hard ba... haiz.. that time on comp whole dae to do work.. den on net.. den fall asleep... basket.. now comp gana numerous virus and adware.. even anti-virus or adware removal oso no use.. sianz to the max...

now at library.. actually wanted to do these in studio 1.. but somehow.. in there i will stress.. dunno why... the smell?? the ambience?? god noes.. next mondae crit liao... come to think abt it, i didnt realli hav much stuffs.. 3d oso like shit.. 2d oso not complete.. details oso dun hav.. toilet anyhow do.. dining space dun hav enuff room.. panel still lack 2... walk-thru oso dun hav.. materials oso anyhow grab... ... etc etc.. WAHAHHAHA.. and to top all, i dun seem to be doin anything... should i be scare??

saw liang and ho yesterdae at fc1.. they nv change sia.. at 1st they couldnt recogonise mi.. hmm.. did i realli change so much over the years?? mom did sae i became more lazy though.. diao.. hmm.. i commented that crits comin and my works not done.. and their reply?? "wad's new?".. haiz.. guess that' explains all... come to think abt it, im realli a slacker.. sometimes, i wonder if i should ever persue my career as an ID... maybe im realli not fit to be 1.. the requirements are too high.. drive i oso dun hav.. design i oso dun hav.. hardworkin i oso dun hav.. the things that got mi thru are onli luck ba.. luck to find a mechanism that moves upon sound.. luck to find good buddy such as yao ming to pull mi thru.. luck to find competition frm yumei to find the drive.. luck to see that small entrance is sure to be unique among the class... etc etc... luck and more luck.. but leh.. the end is comin ba.. haiz~

prior to my presence at library, i was at yumei's crit.. hmm.. how to sae leh.. from 1 look can see that she's bound to top the class this year again.. but then, there's still her presentation skills to build up ba.. hmm.. that the onli thing i feel i can win her.. other den that, model oso gt... 3d oso nice nice.. panel oso swee swee.. details oso one big stack.. a big hammer smash upon mi.. wad the f*** have i been doin for the past 3 months?? i can daringly sae that im one of those leadin students for sem1.. haiz.. damn it... i went to toilet and smack myself awake.. den after the end of her crit, went to see my own panels.. god.. nothing close.. until now, my head is still spinnin.. seems like some bug is runnin around my skulls.. yet.. i couldnt do anything.. haiz.. to think that i dare to try to chase her in the past.. wad joke.. wad insult am i tryin to give her.. hmm.. her rejection has a point after all.. sigh..

later need to go work liao.. wad to do.. poor old mi.. lolx.. actually already had prepare an amt to at least pull mi thru for NS de (NS pay super low... how to live thru..).. but den, due to final year proj... have to cover daily expense of not workin, as well as the stup panels.. haiz.. realli hav to piang work le ba.. at least be4 NS.. my target of 2K must be reached... hump!!

hmm... regardin my progress wif yee leh... erm.. dunno leh.. to a standstill le?? she was there when im stressin wif work ba.. although cant concentrate wif her ard, yet, i cant do anything when she's NOT ard.. veri confusing?? yea.. it is confusing... wonder how long i can take it.. lolx.. self-imposed pressure realli fierce sia.. no one can help ba.. haiz.. im kinda feel ashame of the pressure im capable of takin.. *shake head shake head...
come to think abt it, we've been together officially for 2 months le... stupid leslie's "is she realli the ONE" realli hits mi sia.. confidence gana shaken?? maybe ba..
speaking of confidence, this reminds mi of that time... erm.. how's the story goes... erm...
1 week ago ba.. yee rakin her wallet to search for ez-link card.. den i saw a movie ticket lor.. come to think abt it, we haben been seein movie a long time le.. the last 1 i thought she had was wif her best friends xueting lor, sponge bob the movie.. but then the 1 in her wallet was son of the mask.. of cuz, as a bf, i will ask all the way ba.. who will ignore?? duh.. den she kept silence, lookin out of the bus window, refusin to answer... juz sae is ex-workin collegue.. dunno is i sensitive or wad, but i guess it was allen, who had been msgin yee for quite a while le.. harlow.. any guys out there, how the hell would u react?? or am i simply exaggaratin?? and her response?? she was sayin where has my confidence gone to.. something like "your confidence attracted mi, now wifout it, i dunno how to put it.."... ... i didnt sae it.. but im hurt.. i nv persue why and when did she went for the movie.. i dun even noe if i should mind such small incident.. small to most ppl ba.. to mi.. frankly speakin, i can onli sae im not as confident in r/s as i am wif games.. cuz it is a whole lot different strategy and mindsets... the onli solution i can find was to find more time to pei yee ba.. 2 weeks of chiongin proj. hav such influence in mi liao.. if 2 months at tekong.. wad more can happen??
thus, after submission, i tried to find more times to see movie lor.. wanted to go for HITCH.. but nowadaes she's havin alot of exams.. thus even if she's willin to go out, i rather she concentrate her study ba.. another thing that hurts was "hmm... i guess we can watch in vcd format le..".. in another word, cant be watchin together ba.. dunno is i childish or wad, but somehow, i kind of put it this way: u rather watch wif others rather den wif mi.. lolx.. wad am i thinkin.. dOtz... better fan xing fan xing...

to yee, if u are reading these, hope u realli dun mind wad i written here.. things are realli bottling up.. maybe we should be sitting down and talk more ba.. like wad we had been doin in the past.. by the way, it is not that im not understanding or wad.. i noe wad i SHOULD be understandin of, juz that at times, selfish emotion is in the way.. sorri.. *muack... ...

that's all ba.. guess i realli vomit alot of things out todae le.. wahahaha.. shiok...
~me~ at 3:12 PM

Tuesday, March 1

yo yo yo.. hmm.. been sometime since the last entry liao ba... so much to sae.. yet dunno how to start.. lolz..

hmm.. last week hor.. been quite a tedious week ba.. cuz the week be4, some stup captain at marina sae and act idiotic.. den yee angry and pek chek.. almost wanna quit.. dunno why, the 1st thing that comes into my mind was to stop her frm quittin.. not for money sake, but more of credibility as well as her "face" ba.. i juz dun wan the captains to label her as "see lar, scold abit quit liao".. so insultin.. ended up i "tio" wif joey... again... wad a china bitch she is.. stare at her abit she scare liao.. still go ask floor manager to protect her.. chicken backside.. pui..

kkz.. in the end, nothin much realli happen lor... floor manager startin to put mi in servicin area instead of food runnin liao.. guess he FINALLY noes that i can work better in certain area ba.. 3 years le wor... oso, he tend to put THAT joey far far away frm mi seh.. lolz.. dun let mi find chance.. i will bite back until she wont 4get... lmaoz..

sundae nv work wo.. went to bugis wif yee.. actually alot of plannin sia.. take off juz to relax lor.. actually wanted to go escape theme park... but den like alot other stuff to do.. in the end, settle wif arcade, movie, dinner den neo-print lor...

at bugis, we bought ticket for white noise lor.. initial plan was either spongebob or hitch.. but neither are screenin yet.. next week ba.. den after dat, went to eat at a japanese stall lor.. 1st time eat udon wor.. veri nice!! last time thought ramen veri good liao.. cant believe udon taste so much better!! shiok.. den yee oso order the sushi wif alot of fish egg one... im searchin for the baby octopus one.. but they dun seem to hav ar.. haiz.. too bad.. juz hav to do away wif salmon lor..

at the arcade, we play the percussion master.. diao.. the drum that i use abit faulty one... den half way thru, gt veri pek chek.. den dunno why, that idiotic joey face comes into my mind, den i hit the drum like goin to trash it sia.. lolx... den i think yee oso sense something wrong.. lolz.. sorri hor.. made u worry liao.. hha.. mi bad temper?? hhaa.. but hor.. yee realli play the percussion master veri well lor.. kaoz.. mi stand no chance sia.. need her to put water to win.. dOtz..

white noise leh.. erm.. the show jump her jump there lar... actually shouldnt be scary 1 lor.. but dunno why, im jitter much more in this movie den in hide-and-seek... muz be the sound effect as well as all those sudden jump out scene ba.. haiyo.. i old liao wad.. weak heart cannt take it... lolz.. scare until need to hide behind yee... lmao.. hmm.. overall leh, i wont recommand this show to any1 lor.. quite lousy lor.. female lead oso not pretty.. lolz.. at least in hide-and-seek, there are scene showin cleavage.. hhaa... (that time yee veri dOtz.. i saw the cleavage scene, den look at yee.. and guess wad's her response??!! "u lookin at her breast rite??".. "how u noe??!!"... and calmly.. she replied "charlie told mi..."... ... ... ... ... ... ...) -___-!!

after the movie, go arcade again to square off lor.. hai.. still lost all the way.. find 1 dae, train alone.. onli like dat can over take yee.. lolz.. den we go take neoprints lor.. yee paid all ar.. so paiseh to hav her pay.. come to think abt it.. payin dutch has nv comes into mind ba.. or shld i sae, nv in my option.. hmm.. muz be my dad's teachin.. lolz.. alot of pretty pix wor.. all put in friendster le..

hmm.. yee told mi xiao qiang, some1 in IMM called her home lor.. sort of ask her abt her current situation ba.. sae stuff to make her dong yao??!! haiyo haiyo.. i better not scare myself.. lolz.. i cant do anything wad.. hhaa.. erm.. realli cant doin anything.. feel so weird.. erm.. sort of helpless ba... like walkin along the road, den suddenly serious cramp, den lie on the floor... dunno when will a car come runnin by.. haiz.. weak heart cannt take it..

that's all for 2dae ba.. tml gt DE cup wor.. dunno will be champion again anot... i not afraid of my team's strength, onli scare of my own blunder.. everytime is i cause them to worry 1... weakest link...
~me~ at 1:50 AM

Friday, February 25

not been bloggin again.. lolx.. nvm.. im back~~ lesser work liao.. can now concentrate better wif skool.. but hor.. see the date... diao.. onli left wif ard 3 weeks nia!!! guess will hav to "neglect" yee abit le... sorri hor, gurl gurl..

as usual, need to listen to music to concentrate on PC works.. currently into SHE WILL BE LOVED... realli nice.. that's all for today ba.. need to do plans and sections le...

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window, knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending every day
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
~me~ at 11:44 AM

Wednesday, February 16

dOtz.. seems like not bloggin for years liao.. this is another abandon site?? lolz.. nvm lar.. no one's readin anyway..

not been bloggin ever since lunar new year lor.. kao.. super busy.. before new year is help parent wif fruits.. darn.. during new year and the daes after that, work at marina... or should i sae SLOG at marina... tirin sia.. somemore this year nv go alot of places to collect ang bao.. onli pray at various temple... frm the luoyang tua pek kong, to toa payoh shuang lin shi.. dOtz.. no wonder onli ard 100 plus angbao $$ nia.. sad..

hmm.. this year's valentine fall on workin daes sia.. abit, erm.. regretful lor.. kao.. realli feel that im not a good bf sia.. such romantic dae hav to work and work and work.. erm.. nv buy flower lar.. although alot of ppl explain to mi, however a girl sae she's "anything abt flower" or "dun mind if no flower".. a stalk of rose is enuff to melt her heart.. but hor.. aiya.. can bring myself to buy sia.. not no money lor.. at marina is 16 bucks per hour pay!!! is like, erm.. so weird.. to express one's love (VERI LIKES in my case) in a plant that wont last a month.. signify "im onli goin to love u as long as this roses stays"??!!! enlighten mi!!!
in the end, do away wif fake roses (those gt "sweet" smell 1..) and a pen.. another not so romantic gift lor... haiya.. cuz heard yee sae she lost her fav. pen... somemore i feel that her handwritin realli nice.. thus, should realli OWN a pen ba.. come to think abt it.. onli gurls give pen to guy ba.. where gt the other way round 1.. dOtz..

that's all todae ba.. submission nearin liao.. but i cant seem to pick myself up.. i think minimum need until 24th feb den can realli chiong proj... now realli shag..
~me~ at 3:13 PM

Wednesday, February 2

now bloggin at skool.. t521.. sianz~ nothin to do eh?? nah.. is juz realli sianz.. cuz, like.. weeks liao.. still not much work done.. haiz~

yesterdae at work, gana posted at 'B' area.. wif hao dong.. and SIM student.. he's not a bad chap lar.. juz loud and crude.. lolz~ foul mouth at times.. thus, nt realli popular ba..

den hor, there was this lady wif 'C' quality sit at the 'A' area.. hao dong began alot of weird act lor.. so are other guys.. dOtz.. the lady's not onli BIG.. she wore low-cut plus push-up (accordin to the rest.. im nt expert in these..).. kaoz~ see the clevage will bleed to death liao!! (oso not i sae 1 hor.. lolz~) other den clarifyin if these guys are true, i think ive onli been to her table once ba... hmm.. dunno is i realli dun like or act fake, but hor, i tried not to go over lor.. hhaa.. nv go over leh, ppl sae i nv work (cuz 'B' area no ppl at that time..) go over leh, ppl sae i oso another tiko kia.. kkz.. im tiko.. but not to the extend to seein such EXTREME ba.. kinda disgustin lor.. wonder how her husband can stand it.. haiz~ some other waiter oso became extremely "hardworkin" lor.. hhhaa.. nah.. i prefer xiao long bao.. sweet and simple.. findin a partner is not abt the size!! but on the communication.. it is hard to find some1 that BIG in spore no doubt, but it is much harder to find an understandin, caring as well as loving girl..

since into this subject again.. lolz~ cant help want to crap more.. wonder if any1 out there like control?? too much control oso die.. too lightly oso die.. haiz~ r/s is such a weird thing...

too much control frm a guy to a girl -- the guy will explain he is carin for the girl, but seriously, he is afraid of losin the girl.. jealousy cuz him to act and be there every now and den.. he will give all the protection he has for the girl.. but hor, the girl might feel "over-protected" ba.. although there will not be too much distant.. the freedom of the girl is also pretty much bein limited liao...

too lightly -- the guy explain he is givin his girl freedom lor.. the fact is that he felt that the girl is no longer in "control", thus, simply gave up.. they might no longer crap since both party will think such talk are unneccessary, and might even find it a "bother" to "entertain" the other party.. hmm.. this is how most family members are now ba?? gt funny things, oso rather share wif friends rather wif pa or ma..

how many ppl realli REMEMBER why they no longer wanna share their joke wif pa or ma?? well, i do.. be cuz of generation gap.. be cuz they no longer interested.. be cuz pa and ma are not "entertained".. be cuz i no longer wan to gain their attention... any more?? (to yee.. erm.. is this wad u mean by "he is more like a family member to mi"??.. *paused for few sec.. dunno wad to type... heart weird weird..) does all r/s have to end up like this?? readers.. dun think too much.. i haben meet such crisis.. .. YET.. lolz~

conclusion: there muz be a mixture of both "pull" and "let-go" in order for a kite to fly high ba.. alot of ppl noe these, but as time goes by, these other forgotten.. even the initial reason for their r/s are buried.. hhaa.. i hope im not 1 of them.. i would juz keep remindin myself not to step on such bobby traps... but hor.. however i prevent, every now and den still will make mistake ba.. when 1 make mistake, it is often hard for that person to noe... thus.. peeps other there.. if im in wrong, feel free to pull mi back.. i might be "aggressive" for a moment, but trust mi, i will turn ba normal after realisin my mistake..

come to think abt it.. i think ive been too stick to yee these daes.. diaO.. sorri yee.. feel free to voice out ok?? this stickiness might be botherin her best friend, xt ba.. lolz~ hmm.. maybe 1 dae we can come out wif a solution?? if not, maybe juz dun see yee home le..

2dae mornin woke up need to help dad send fruits to a factory at tuas there... forgt wad place liao.. juz remember the guy was william ho s.k... lolz~ engineer wo.. thus, todae wear realli lock-cock.. even wore short pant to skool.. lolz~ long time nv like dat liao... but doesnt seem any1 cares.. wan to clown ard oso no1 to gain attention.. lmaoz~ that's all for 2dae ba..

~me~ at 3:26 PM

Monday, January 31

wooo.. been sometime since i blog le.. too tired and lazy lar.. even play gear oso no time... hahhaha...

now in skool library.. actually can stay at t5 to do all these thingy.. but at lib, can get together wif yee.. but leh.. haiz~ that server put both of us in different area... dOtz.. nvm lor.. still can chat via e-messenger..

last 2 nite at work, i think manager cant bear to see mi tired, put mi in the bar for 2 consecutive daes.. haiz~ in the small cramp place, realli nt my cup of tea sia... although can drink every now and den lar, eat fruits every now and den lar.. but hor, juz feel sian sian lor.. like dunno how to do wad... etc.. haiz~ somemore water and aircon.. brr.. frozen..

last nite leh.. saw some unpleasant scene again.. somemore 2 times.. den the whole nite veri sian lor.. i mean, for the past 10 years, been tryin to get away frm it 1... den now.. erm.. haiz~ so contridictin.. in the end, i gave in.. it is not i surrender or anything.. juz that i hope that i can move along wif her in the same pathway...

todae early in the mornin.. darn.. need to follow dad ard to send fruits b4 goin to skool.. at 1st, i heard is send the chinese orange, i though paper box 1, den nvm.. cuz lighter wad.. i can carry 2 or 3 boxes per round... in the end, it was the pine-wood boxes... dOtz.. total 25!!! kaoz~ carry until back breakin sia... haiz~ tonite still workin.. den in a weeks time, will be helpin out in the dae, workin long beach at nite.. kaoz~ no life liao.. gt gf oso like dat, no gf oso like dat.. sometime i wonder why am i so hard on myself.. haiz~ i least im seekin is understandin ba...

that's all for 2dae ba.. ciaoz~

~me~ at 1:43 PM

Thursday, January 27

hhaa.. juz reach skool.. tml submission liao.. cannt find the mood to work.. dOtz.. nvm.. i gt 2 ways to encouragin myself wo.. 1st, go look into the mirror, den can find he kick liao.. lmaoz~ the 2nd, think of yee lor.. although sound weird, but this is 1 of the reason i like to look for smarter girls.. they give the urge to work better.. cuz there are bound to hav difference in certain area of studies, and in order for mi to narrow the gap, i will work extremely hard to catch up.. hhaa..

yesterdae at skool nv realli manage alot of stuff.. mostly, onli the layout plan is out.. decided to complete the sections as well as annotation 2nite... but hor.. my staff zone as well as handicap toilet haben settle.. sushi bar @ 2nd storey oso haben comfirm the layout.. vip rooms and private rooms @ 1st storey oso nv settle how the waterscape is goin to appear to the public.. wwawawawawa..

yesterdae accompany yee after skool lor.. feel that she's abit "lost" 2dae.. like.. xin shen bu din.. there might things that's bothering her.. but her conscious and sub-conscious arent workin 2gether.. in short term: mood swing?? lolz~ dun "fan" le ok.. if need a listenin ear, here u hav...

while walkin her home, can see the "lostness" in her face and movement lor.. dunno wad's she's thinkin though.. ask her oso dunno if it is correct.. thus, onli stay by her ba.. at her apartment, we walk round and round lor.. can at least "sense" that she dun wanna go hm so early ba.. but already at door steps liao.. thus, i suggest we go walk walk outside lor.. i remember there are these shophouses nearby.. we went there, bought tibits, den go to an abandon coffeeshop eat and talk talk lor.. aiyah... too bad it is afternoon.. so bright, if not.. wahahahah~ *evil grin..
yee ar.. if u realli gt anything need to talk, juz sae lor.. scare i angry or wad?? dOtz... if now i oso will angry, den next time might become worst rite?? hhaa.. so dun worry.. :p

last nite gt a veri weird and bad dream.. 1st is some1 offerin mi cigarette.. not the 1st time i dream of smokin again le.. haiz~ muz get it off my mind!!! den 2nd was bad disaster strike us.. although ive been assure many time how safe we are frm any natural disaster, but still... haiz~ this dream muz be due to those mousey that ive been seein running ardthe street these daes.. u ppl gt see them?? dunno u pl gt hear b4 anot, if a ship in the sea is goin to experience a storm, the rats that are in the deck will rush out and try to escape b4 the storm starts.. so, does the theory applies on land?? haiz~ maybe think too much lar..

that's all ba.. still hav to chiong my work..

~me~ at 10:47 AM

Wednesday, January 26

woo.. long time nv blog in the middle of the nite le.. was doin the restaurant thingy.. but mind-block ar.. sianz~ some things juz cant be figured out...

2dae after sendin yee to lessons, began to scan blogs lor.. happen to see her best friend xueting's blog.. diao.. she seems veri angry and dulan that yee skip lesson todae and was wif mi.. cuz nv inform her be4 hand, and make her wait like a idiot?? oso, her other comments seems like ever since my presence, she's finding hard to hang ard wif yee ba... erm.. im already tryin my best to mixed ard le ba.. haiz~ seems like it is not workin thou.. hopefully yee are not in a fix right now... aniwae.. dun angry liao lar.. shu shu give u sweet ok??

at work 2dae, REALLI xiong ar.. the whole restaurant was mainly occupied by 2 functions 2dae.. one is 7-tables indoor.. the other is 13-tables, AIA, company function, outdoor.. hate such large functions.. cuz every dishes will come at the same time.. hard for mi to decide where to concentrate more on servicin..
dunno is luck or wad, gana 50's again.. this time no joey liao.. good.. but hor.. all my 3 tables are in the function too.. haiz~
super xiong lor.. cuz 2 ppl put aeroplane todae.. makin us 2-men down... in the end, i hav to do food-run too... diao...
now gt yu sen liao.. haiz~ so early... long time nv do.. den like need to talk.. erm.. paiseh?? tokin to chinese-speakin diners still alrite.. if to ang mor, how?? "year year gt fish"?? "big mandrine big energy"?? haiz~ work until "up air cannt connect down air"..
now gt new substitute for sweet sause in yu sen liao.. they are made wif wasabi... green green 1.. haiz~ dunno wad "auspicious" verse to use le..

after work, gt the urge to tok to jing tang... dunno why, juz wanna ask him abt yee.. cuz he knew yee back to the daes when yee was workin at IMM.. so maybe can know abt yee thru another person?? but soemthing stops mi.. it seems to mi that if i ask, it would onli show how "much" im trustin yee ba.. i mean, it is not that i dun wanna ask yee.. but i juz dunno wad to ask... thus, wad went thru my mind was "can tell mi abit abt yee??"... at least can gather a few info ba.. but in the end, still nv ask.. TRUST, UNDERSTANDING, HONESTY, PATIENT and CONCERN... main ingredients in a r/s ba.. can put into action here le ba.. if yee realli dun wanna sae, she muz hav her reason.. and i respect that.. knowin too much might nt be beneficial.. right??
oso, seein swee han, tempted to ask him why he bo dai bo ji sms yee.. nt that i jealous lor.. kelvin? jealous? cant be lar.. nah.. not possible.. lolz~

that's all for 2nite ba..

~me~ at 2:43 AM

Tuesday, January 25

yo.. 2 or 3 daes nv blog liao le ba.. haa...

yesterdae wanted to wake up early and go skool continue proj 1.. cuz submission this fridae wad.. better guai guai finish the stuff... FORCE myself not to sleep until 5.. all i need to "tong" 1 more hour.. haiz~ laziness gt the better of mi lor.. "kel, juz 1 hour nia, go sit at the sofa and rest rest lar.. wont sleep 1..".. dOtz.. when i open my eyes again, 9am liao... haiz~

at nite at workplace.. diao.. realli tio business wif joey.. the PR executive.. actually, b4 work start, i already gt a gut feel that 2dae will tio wif her lor.. cuz previous nite she cuz my dear to be unhappy.. (although im oso in fault for teasin yee lar..) but better find a scrapegoat ba.. lolz~
wad realli happen?? well, 2dae veri lucky, gana my fonte position at the 50's again!! den the captain is joey.. at the start still ok.. i can handle everything myself lor.. somemore nt much to do aniwae.. later into the end, where every tables need clearin b4 deserts, she began too bug mi!!! she's at the 50 and 51, saw that they MIGHT hav finished and should be servin desert liao.. by right she can ask them, b4 instructin mi to clear.. instead, she walk all the way to find mi and CALL mi go ask.. nvm lor.. i go lor.. BUT THIS SITUATION HAPPEN 3 TIMES!!! harlow... u captain paiseh to ask izit?? den hor, when i clear table 50, took 2 rounds lor.. the tray damn full liao lor.. the table onli left finger-bowl, other den that, swee swee liao lor.. kaoz.. she's already at the table lor.. need to walk all the way to find mi and call mi go clear it meh?? somemore so sarcastically sae "u leave the finger bowl there for customer to wash hand again ar??"f*** u... i lun lor.. the whole dae i treat her as invisible character...

after work when collecting money frm alicia, she "explain" that as a PR executive, joey as right not to help mi... wadever.. i dun give it a damn.. to mi, if kenneth give her a position in the tables to look upon, she hav the need to take care too... not juz call mi or any other waiter do it.. if like dat can, den alice oso can do rite?? stup... every1 is long beach staff lor.. i work for long beach, not work for the captain... basket... den alicia see mi veri unstable wif emotion (cuz i seldom curse at work...) call mi to cool down.. she will talk to mi again the next dae..

2dae leh.. woke up pretty early seh.. went to find yee at bb so as to go skool together.. mi no lesson 2dae.. juz dun feel like stayin at home lar.. somemore if later realli find the mood, can do work in skool lor..

now at library wif yee.. she pon her lesson again.. dOtz.. juz now she look at "yellow" comic sia.. wahahahha~ that all for 2dae ba...

~me~ at 11:10 AM

Sunday, January 23

my boo

Usher:
There's always that one person that will always have your heart
You never see it coming cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me, it's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, you will always be my boo

Jermaine Depri
I don't know about y'all but I know about us and uhh it's the only way we know how to rock (repeat)

Usher Verse
Do you remember girl, who was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl who was the one who said put your lips like this
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
Girl I was there and you were my baby

Chorus 1:Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its' still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright (it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo

Chorus 2: Beyonce
I loved you when we were younger you were mine
And when I see from time to time I still feel like,
And if I see you no matter how I try to hide
And even though there's another man who's in my life, you will always be my boo

Beyonce Verse
Yes I remember boy, cause after we kissed I'm never gonna whipe my lips
Yes I remember boy,that you were the one I would grow old with
Even before all the fame and people screaming your name
Boy I was there and you were my baby

Chorus 1: Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its' still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright (it's alright girl, that's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo

Chorus 2: Beyonce
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
And see from time from time i still feel like(my boo)
See no matter how i try to hide(it's alright now, it's okay)
even though there's another man in my life
you will always be my boo

Bridge
My ooh my ohh my ohh my ohh my boo (repeat)

Usher
It started when we were younger and you were mine (my boo)
Now another brothers' taken over but its' still in your eyes (my boo)
Even though we use to argue it's alright (it's alright, it's okay)
And if we haven't seen each other in a while, but you will always be my boo

~me~ at 2:57 PM

Saturday, January 22

ultraseven 
~me~ at 10:42 AM

yea.. after "un-official" for approx 2 months (60 daes to be exact).. mi and yee finally gt together liao.. haa.. jan 21st mark the 1st of "official" date ba... lmao..

yesterdae no skool, cuz of holidae lor.. morning wait up ard 10 ba.. den watch ultra man cosmo.. haiz~ guess ultraman era realli comin to an end liao... no "kick" watchin the show.. darn.. right now, i still like ultraseven best!! still can remember the way he will transform!! bring out a yellow "spectacles" den put in front of the eye.. den slowly frm the face, the who body change to form ultraman!!! i think the "specs" is called ultra-eye or task mask or something like dat.. they resemble the "googles" wore by the police of "virtual cops".. lolz~ this is 1 of the reason why i wear specs in a tender age of 7!! lolz~ last time like to use my spec den like "transform".. oso, this is the reason why i gt EXTREMELY large plastic specs in primary skool era.. however the other kids laugh, i stand by my dream.. lmao..
the reason why i like ultraseven so much is becuz he look so diff frm all the other ultraman!! and also, further knowin he background, he was actually a key figure in the ultraman world!! he's not a king, prince or knight, but the leader of a secret "police" force known as the "red" army.. the army, if not wrong, onli gt 7 ppl.. and he's the LEADER!! like SWAT team sia.. lolz~
another reason i like him is he's variety of power!! the "L" hand beam (dunno called WIDE SHOT or EMELLIUM BEAM) and the beam frm his forehead (EYE SLUGGER) and also the boomerang shot frm the "piece" on his head... BEST!!

enuff of ultraman ba... lolz~ yesterdae went to orchard wif yee.. she sae she wanna see some clothes at far east.. she wore veri nice yesterdae lor.. hhaa... black shirt, white collar, den gt pink tie.. guess is my 1st time to see her wear so, erm, special?? compared to mi, rather "lock-cock" plz pyjamas-look.. haiz~ nvm lar.. pyjamas-look oso gt his market value.. lolz~
on bus, we crap like nobody's business... until the "gt taste, no taste" thingy.. darn.. gana suan again.. but later at orchard hor.. i gt my revenge lor.. i sae "maybe pretty, maybe gt potential" (referin to other girls walkin ard..) but hor.. she heard other-wise!! dOtz.. den paiseh herself lor... hahaha...
went to far east to eat chicken rice.. lolz~ guess there onli gt chicken rice good to eat ba..

after that, went to work ler.. veri xiong.. posted at 'A'.. one of my weakest area.. cuz at here, it is pretty centralise.. although can get help frm everywhere, at the same time, need to multi-task alot!! i like to help others, but seldom like others to help mi.. lolz~ cuz i always feel that i can do everything by myself.. i noe it is a wrong thinkin, but den hor, onli this way can i assure myself that im still some1 of certain "value"... dOtz...
den yee beside mi lor, 26-30... all small tables.. her's is more xiong as they are small tables, food will finish faster, den she hav to change the table for another user.. haiz~ mi cant help much.. instead, she came over to help mi... jiayou be kelvin..

sendin yee home drunk again.. lolz~ we both drink.. but hor, i still feel veri bad ba.. like "cheat" little girl to drink.. den hor, yee leak more of her secret to mi liao... :P
seems to noe more and more abt her.. dunno why, juz cant get angry abt her past.. cuz they are no longer in control.. all i can sae is to cherish the present ba..

that's all for 2dae ler...

~me~ at 10:10 AM

Friday, January 21

yo.. bloggin in nite again...

gt nothin to do in skool.. thus took a pic of myself, den photoshop edit lor.. wahahaa...

todae pon TOD lor.. feel like there's gonna be more borin topic again.. it is not that larry is not good, but somehow, i dun see the relavancy.. most of the time are onli pics and talks.. wan to copy any notes oso dunno wad to write.. whenever in his class, i will juz still at the corner and draw-draw.. haiz~

todae went to NP open house wif yee and xueting.. june joined us later.. erm.. dunno if i should put it here... haha... but anyway, kinda dislike june now liao... cuz she too influential ba.. lolz~ puffer... dOtz..
den squabber wif xueting almost all dae lor.. diao.. for no reason, gt on the bus, start suanin mi.. even wen tok to yee, oso move 1 big round shoot mi...
yee oso another 1.. more serious.. physical action!! suan plus pinch!!! lucky 2dae wear pretty thick cuz early mornin nose runnin 2.4km... if not ar.. siao liao.. sure more scratches and blue-black!! lolz~ kiddin kiddin... it seems like everydae thingy liao.. she dun scratch, like not happy... lolz~ den i dun gana pinch.. like itch... lmao~ (lmao = laughing my ass off)

at NP leh.. actually gt a target 1... at least gt 5 phone nos. frm chio bu.. but hor.. hard luck wif girls leh.. lolz~ no lar.. actually juz wan to make yee eat vinegar... did my best though.. the prob wif mi is that my "trick" wif girls are pretty limited and old-fashion.. lolz~ and internet is not helpin!!!

after NP, send yee home... hheee.. dunno the route well.. thus need her guidance wif the road again.. diao.. road blind is like dat 1 lar.. if NS gana driver how sia??!! hhahaha~ the trip pretty short lar.. so didnt talk alot.. also, the hot sun todae realli drain mi sia..
lolz~ saw her lil bro again... at 1st when he saw he, we walk slow slow (he noe mi meh??)... but upon passin mi, dash straight home.. lolz~ scare i kidnap him ar?? lolz~ although onli seen 2nd time, but his facial look like male version of yee... lolz~ somemore they way he run pretty unique.. and his over size skool shirt.. lolz~ cute ba... kaoz~ wad tokin mi.. sound like "pino"... ahahha~

after that, some friends jio mi to DotA lor.. LAN gamin.. todae tried silencer and medusa.. seems like my skills are improvin.. guess it is realli typical aquarian ba.. GOOD in many things, but nv the BEST is any thing... lolz~ am i a shapeshifter?? hhaa...

that's all for 2nite ba.. tml is kinda impt dae for mi.. wahahha~

~me~ at 3:16 AM

mi... 
~me~ at 3:13 AM

Thursday, January 20

now in skool le.. had lunch wif leslie they all after the PQM thingy...

dunno why.. suddenly like feel veri "empty"... am i worrying too much... haiz~

last nite chat on phone wif yee.. know more abt her liao.. well, she did sae that by talkin thru phone, she can better express herself since if face-to-face, she might not hav the courage or something.. haiz~ phone and sms these daes realli help ppl to hide themselves i guess.. or should i sae, "filter" their emotion?? lolz~

in the conversation leh, at least i noe why we go out in the 1st place liao.. hahaa.. it was nothin good though.. as wad she sae.. sound like she's bad?? lolz~ i noe i should be angry abt it.. but dunno why, there is this "if she had not done it.. will we proceed until this daes.." kind of feelin.. be it optimistic or simply childish, but this is realli wad i felt... so, how can i be angry??

oso, yee open herself up to tell mi abt her previous relationship le.. to mi, it is realli joyful.. not that im sarcastic or anything.. but at least she began to trust mi more ba... but then again, this are onli "filtered" since it is thru phone.. lolz~ so, i need to put in more effort and show her liao ba..

come to think abt it.. neither of us realli thought we might go this far.. her reason for us goin out in the 1st place was pretty "evil" intention.. lolz~ and my reason of goin out is simply not to turn down an invitation frm a girl lor... i mean, it is realli bad to turn down for no reason rite?? erm.. actually, at that time, i oso nt quite noe yee yet.. onli seen each other at work for approx 1 month ba... lolz~ maybe go out and know abt her more lor.. hahaha... yee told mi her 1st impression of mi was rather bad.. shiok~ lolz~ cuz most ppl dun find mi "shun yan" at 1st too... cuz i gt the "xia lan" face and attitude ba.. well, i do hav my reason i guess.. at least, this "xia lan"ness can keep away any threats of "kajiao"ing.. lolz~

lolz~ later goin NP open house wif yee and co... since 2dae wear so good, might as well go there xian some girls ba.. lolz~ cuz heard that NP business gt realli pretty girls.. wahahaha~ kelvin the tiko sicko...

that's all ba.. the rest of feelin will still be bury deep in my heart...

~me~ at 11:59 AM

Wednesday, January 19

haiz~ nowadaes alot of ppl nv blog le... becuz they viewed it as a chores?? or becuz they think that too many ppl are viewin it ler?? hahaa...

yesterdae rather sian.. dad and mom wanna "celerbrate" my lunar bdae, so ask mi nt to work... 30 bucks lesser to spend liao... haiz~ but nvm.. they give ang bao and also hav to wear this golden key on my neck... hahaa..

morning leh, although no lesson, was pretty early in skool.. maybe it is becuz NO LESSON, that is why i can reach early ba.. lolz~ dun wanna see the lect... see oso nothin to show them.. i did do some stuffs liao... but hor.. juz feel that it is not enuff.. whenever wanna continue do, mind will be roamin somewhere else ler.. so at skool, continue to do 3d lor.. until finish the whole thing, did i notice the stairs weird weird... diao.. floatin stairs!! den i notice i forget to add in 150 for the thickness of slab!!! basket... too sian.. thus go out and walk walk liao..

den in the afternoon, msg yee all the way lor.. hahaha.. her lesson at chemical process seems veri sian.. lolz~ lucky i nv gt in the last time.. diao??!!

at nite, wif wif parent to go eat dinner as part of the "celebration" lor.. haiz~ if not, can send her home ba.. nvm... lai re fang chang..

nthin more ler.. lolz~

~me~ at 10:34 AM

Tuesday, January 18

2dae nothin special happened.. thus goin to talk abt something else.. haha...

maybe nowadaes frequently take taxi ba.. thus, i cant help but feel that relationship can be relate back to a taxi.. hhaa..

the theory of how a taxi, as a service, consist of mainly 2 ppl.. the driver and the passenger.. in a nut-shell, it is how 2 person will travel together in the same route..

problems are bound to arise, like the driver goes wrong direction.. etc.. it takes the passenger's understandin, and the driver's "automatic-ness" to get over this such hurdle.. yet, wadever happened, if the final destination nv change, sooner or later, both party will get there...

now.. this is the tricky part.. is the final destination clear?? is the destination singapore? bukit batok? amk? which part? which ave? which blk?? i feel that in order for the driver to make to the place, the passenger hav to give enuff details as well as confidence in the driver.. yet, there are privacy too.. example, some ppl simply dun tell the driver the exact location... thrust is in the way...

half way thru, should the driver make a mistake, wifout enuff patient, will the passenger juz walk out and hop on another cab?? the journey is long.. the journey is still not clear.. the journey is full of cross junctions.. and lastly, the journey is full of other cabs and taxi-drivers.. each are like the 1st, promisin to reach the destination.. thus, if the reason for the passenger to board the cab is not strong in the 1st place, confidence are bound to shake and leadin to "walkin on thin ice"... im not sayin that the passenger is wrong to look at other opportunities or anything, but it is always good that the passenger updates and "secure" the driver... example, the passenger saw in other cab, gt hi-fi!! the music shiok!! instead of jumpin straight over (gt incentive wad.. who dun wan??), why not the passenger ask the driver if he has such add-on factors anot?? askin in correct techniques here will clear alot of misunderstandin.. since the driver might be concentrating on the road, dun assume the the driver get to notice small details the passenger is showin.. even if dun hav, arent there other factors that this cab has, that other cab dun??

many will be tempted to hop on the other cab and "try try see see"... but did they think wad this can do to the driver?? he will regret not installin the hi-fi?? maybe better? but when the passenger finally found out that the previous was actually better, the cab might hav been hop-on by others liao..

upon hop-on, since done is done liao, regret oso no use... den sit back and enjoy the hi-fi ba.. but wad if the passenger see another better cab? wif surround speaker, even gt a mobile TV!!! no doubts.. destination will be reached sooner or later... but.. harlow.. think of how much time and money has been wasted?? some drivers might even be goin in circles.. by now, bein indulge in the "incentive" add-ons... the passenger might hav forgotten abt the destination liao... i dun mean it is the passenger's fault in cab-hoppin, neither do i encourage it.. but if one is sure that the cab he or she is in, are not goin the correct direction, and hav be goin in circles for sometimes.. things are not right... stop the cab, hav a serious talk.. if it still dun work out, den seek for other cabs... the most important thing, the conclusion, remember why u gt on the taxi... is it for the incentive add-ons, or for the destination.. if for the destination, dun mind, plz be exact...

things are runnin my mind.. haiz~ that's all for 2nite ba.. 2am liao... -______-!!

~me~ at 1:44 AM

Monday, January 17

haahah.. kkz, recently the rate of bloggin approx 2 daes 1 blog.. at skool finally gt the "feel" to work hard liao... den at home, onli gt the "feel" to play.. hhaa.. thus, didnt blog lar..

last 2 daes at work realli sian sia.. gana posted into areas i dun like... saturdae was bar... hai.. in there, im like a super newbie lor.. den uncle thomas seems veri unhappy abt my workin ability in there.. it is like, i simply gan jiong in there lor.. dunno wad to do or anything.. peel orange oso cut myself.. diao?? den he nag in cantonese lor.. most ppl dunno i understand canto, and i always portray i dun, since i can onli listen abit and cant talk in it.. hhaa.. den, erm, hai.. whole dae so negative.. stuck inside, cant help yee outside.. onli can sneak out to collect glass, den see can help help anot... but saw how dong xu and the rest are helpin her, guess dun need mi ba.. feel kidda useless...

on sundae leh, at 1st, i heard i was to guard the 50's.. wow.. so lucky sia.. my forte position!! den he told mi there are no reservation over there, which means ive a "free" role to play.. shiok, can help yee in the indoor liao.. diao.. den kenneth, our manager, idiotically put mi to vip room 3... and oso force mi to stay IN... haiz~ so sad... but every now and den, i still siam out to "look look see see".. hahaha...

on fri nite, we drank.. den the whole journey both of us face super duper red.. hey hey hey... im not tryin to drunk her den do anything to her hor.. kelvin dun do such thing!! onli do it when she's super clear.. wahahah~ tiko mi?? den she blurted alot of stuffs out.. oso seems veri sad.. the pain she's feelin, the confusion she's facing.. and the onli thing i can do was onli stand by her.. already feelin useless the whole dae, this makes mi feel more incapable.. den hor, she wear so few todae.. hai.. too bad she drunk liao.. the process sendin her home was tedious sia.. cuz muz make sure she dun "chao ken"... den oso i dun dare to see.. haiz~ am i a guy anot??

sat nite leh, work end at 10.. den mi and yee are able to take 173 at clementi to her house lor.. such a short journey.. hahaa.. den on the way, oso gt mosqitoe.. -___-!! dangerous.. dunno will gana dengue anot... nowadaes rainin season, so pretty dangerous.. maybe skool oso gt?? hhaa..

yesterdae leh, right in the mornin, can onli think of some1.. haha... so er xin?? den wanted to surprise yee lor.. although i noe she gt test on tuesdae, as well as a report to hand up on mondae, but i feel realli wanna go out.. cant be sure if she feel the same, but i juz wanna see her.. lolz~ so hor, ard 1, started my journey to her house liao... reach ard 3 plus ba.. hhaa.. maybe it is realli heng of mi ba.. upon reachin bukit batok and gt on the bus, yee sms mi.. hehehe..
den we went to clementi arcade to play again.. there is this new "rock-fever 4".. and we saw these 3 guys that play super well lor!! i think 1 of them tried to get yee's no. b4 ba.. to think that she realli give him.. hhaahaa.. am i scare?? erm.. ok ba.. if sae im super confident, that is onli bluffin.. somemore ppl so handsome.. den i can onli stand 1 side lor.. :P dun worry.. this will make mi cherish her more!!! (if dun overdo can le ba...)
after that, go work lor..

todae mornin.. gt a veri big surprise frm yee... onli btw mi and her lor.. haahha~ thx auntie meiyee... that's all folks~

~me~ at 9:39 AM

Friday, January 14

diao... recently realli late for bloggin sia... hahaa.. miss 1 dae again...

yesterdae leh, went to watch OMEN wif yee, alvin and xiyu... all workin partners lar... actually wanted to watch chucky, but alot of friends' comment prevented us frm throwin money on lousy show.. aniwae, when alvin 1st recommended OMEN, he told mi it was horrow movie.. frm the poster, it does give mi the creeps.. but den hor, i saw it was PG... hmm.. horror movie?? cannt be wad.. haha.. smart huh?? haha... den before the movie started, we saw the previews of HIDE and SEEK as well as FENGSHUI.. diao.. realli.. erm.. "awakenin".. super no my cup of tea... but yee wan to get scare leh.. so nvm lor.. heehee.. next targeted movie ba..

OMEN leh, alot of suspense... they try to make normal "omen" seems scary lor.. i give credits to the sound effect.. wifout them, the movie is rather dull ba.. the storyline was pretty straight-forward, but some1 still need mi to explain wad happen here and there... whaahaha...

after movie, send yee home again.. this time round, she suggest to take 173... cuz gt time wad, and somemore dun hav to cross the road for 176... i didnt quite noe of the route this bus goes.. does the travellin lenghten?? hhaa.. the longer, the better ba.. (tiko mi...) hahaha.. miss chance lor... wahhahaa... (tiko mi again..)

2dae pon PQM to meet yee for breakfast.. wahahaha... nothing super lar.. juz that dun feel like goin PQM... oso, can see lesser the lecturer's face, the better.. if not, why did i go to the far end of the class?? aniwae, we crap again lor.. time flies.. hhaaha.. diao.. i think i can comfirm liao ba.. yee is 1 girl that i can talk to, or rather, crap wif all dae long wif never-endin topics... not that we realli talkative, it is such that whenever i ended, she gt new things to sae, den frm wad she sae, i can further more crap... den yee is the sort that dun lose out easily lor.. so if i crap, she too will followsuit.. haiz~ once, i gana her trickery... until now she still laugh.. so diao...

after skool, we went to clementi to play rock-fever again... so scary.. yee improve so much... last time i still hav to jiang jiu her to play easy, now she will argue and insist on normal.. even on normal, still can beat mi at certain stages!!! and the most scary thing is, we both gt PERFECT in a pretty hard song... this song was my fonte, yet she can get the same score as mi??! -_________-!! stress... hhaha.. i will improve 1.. dun pray pray..

on the way sendin yee home, mr goh sms mi, sae can give my bdae to the class anot... diao?? gt a bad feelin... dOtz..

that's all for 2nite ba.. smell ya later...

~me~ at 1:06 AM

Wednesday, January 12

hmm... been some times since i last blog ler ba.. hahah.. lazy ar..

on monday 10th jan, basket.. gana harass at work!! maybe thus traumatise, so nv blog.. hwhahaha~ i was doin food running, and basically, my job is juz to serve the food that was brought out to the food-holdin area.. then there was this table wif 5 gays (by the way they talk and act..) den hor, i serve the steam fish over lor.. while negotiatin thru other dishes on the lazy-susan, i overheard that 1 of them need red-cut chilli.. as a lao jiao waiter, of cuz i will ask him (??) if i can help him to get it, all he hav to do is wait.. u noe wad he do??!! he asked, "oh~ so good to me ar~ u like mi isit~?" den he wink and touch my butt... sicko!!! lucky he onli touch, if he pinch, HA! the whole steam fish will steam his diggy!!! hump!

yesterdae leh, another dae wifout yee.. lolz~ at least monday still get to see her in skool, but tuesdae no lesson wad.. so didnt go skool.. haa... but we gt msn wor.. aiyah... dunno lar.. where gt ppl cant live juz becuz of another person 1.. cant be cant be.. hahah~

hmmm... a da jie that graduated last year fm CLS IC suddenly sms mi sae she broke off wif her bf liao... erm.. diao?? dunno how to help her.. haiz~ maybe intro more guy to her?? lolz~

at work last nite, gana stationed at outdoor "B" area wif prisillia... wahaha.. i think she began to scare of mi ler... cuz i always gave her attitude... hmm.. come to think abt it, she's the onli person that i will give attitude ba.. she's not that bad, juz that i dun like the way she work.. too gan jiong liao... she gan jiong her business lar, dun hav to push mi to the edge wad.. i noe when to be serious, and when to relac.. somemore gan jiong for wad?? so that we can go hm early?? diao her lar..
paul oso another guy.. at ard 955pm, kept tellin mi "kelvin, dun forget u can go off at 10".. diao.. scare i will stay meh?? so i simply sae that i wont, why should i? "oh, cuz i think u like to work alot wad..."... lamest among the lame... haiz~ wif this kind of workin environment.. haiz~

last nite msn wif mabel, dunno why recently she crap so much abt my attitude wif others... sae wad im too straight lar... sae wad i can sae better things lar.. sae wad im stubborn lar... haiz~ nvm lor.. at most next time treat her differently lor.. normally wif friends den i treat "harsh" abit.. since she wan it, i can onli now catogarise her as "common" friend ler.. at least last time can put under "workin" friend.. hahahaha~

kkz, that all for 2dae ba...

~me~ at 11:12 AM

Monday, January 10

When NASA first started sending up astronauts, they quickly discovered that ballpoint pens would not work in zero gravity. To combat the problem, NASA scientists spent a decade and $12 billion to develop a pen that writes in zero gravity, upside down, underwater, on almost any surface including glass and at temperatures ranging from below freezing to 300 C.

The Russians used a pencil.


is this life?? we tend to focus and concentrate too much wif certain idea, but, at the end of the dae, the answer is always there, right wif us... thus, dun overlook the least possibilities in life..

~me~ at 11:22 AM

kk.. been idle a few daes liao.. weekends too sian to blog ba.. hahaha...

yesterdae was a realli tirin dae lor... woke at 7 plus, stoned for half an hour, before goin to bath den go help parents at the fruit store liao... basket... in the mornin cold like antartica.. brr.. lucky when i reach the market, the rain began to subside.. most of the time im helpin out wif the cashierin as well as restockin lor.. mom and dad will be doin the packagin and calculation and my lil sis wil deal wif the packagin onli... my 2 lil bro juz stay at hm to rot sia.. haiz~ however i called oso no response... hmm.. long time nv use force le?? ahahah... violence... better not.. lolz~

the worst scenario that happened todae to mi was a stupid auntie, askin for certain orange (if not wrong was the 72-fruits-per-box type..) damn... den i need to walk all the way to the carpark to get the whole box, den bring all the way back... kao... imagine mi skinny skinny.. den carry the whole sunkist box.. lolz~ actually nothin much lar.. cuz im pretty fit u noe??.. haa.. dOtz..

den ard 12 leh, finally everything finished ler... went hm to rest lor, since later that nite still hav to work.. den my mom and dad oso close 1 eye.. harlow.. wad else they wan rite?? free labour leh.. wahahaha.. den at hm hor, stayed in the shower for half an hour sia.. haha.. too sian lar.. showerin seems to "wake" mi up lar.. but den, after that, i almost fall alsp on bed lor.. lolz~ den yee msg...

so hor, we planned to meet at clementi to play the 2-bucks-per-hour arcade.. this time round, i late lor... hhaa... the dae b4 at bugis she late.. diao.. nvm lar... as i always sae, late better den nv.. lolz~

meetin yee at the arcade.. wah... her attire, erm.. ok lar.. :p
den we played the "rock fever" again.. and she seems to improve veri fast lor.. faster den i 1st started out.. hai.. that's the difference between a music background and a noobs background... music yee still can lar, but sport game wise.. hahaha.... some1 no sense of direction.. lolz~

after that, we left at ard 5.. so i suggest maybe we go explore tanjong pagar, see gt bus to go to work frm there anot.. this way, dun hav to go all the way to marina le wad.. lolz~
took sometime to finally found the bus-stop, den we crap all the way lor.. haiz~ as lame as ever.. grow up leh.. hahaha~~~

at work of hell of a disaster... NO CUSTOMERS... oso, i 4gt to "mo ai 1 minute" at 6pm... i stationed at the bar todae sia... den onli cut the fruits once, deal wif a few coconuts, the beer 2 times, the dessert 6 or 7 times... kaoz~ by 9pm, manager ask use to go hm liao... haiz~ earn peanuts sia...

since it was so early, yee suggest go eat... so we went to lau pa sar... xiyu and alvin joined us too... den we ordered sting ray, black pepper crab, kang kong, fried rice and sambal xi shi... actually, i was quite worried wif yee.. since she did hav prob eatin seafood, will cause itch.. hmm... hopefully not that serious ba.. (dun scratch too much hor.. :P )
come to think abt it, if 1 month come out once like dat oso not bad..

den send yee hm as usual.. den i think i played too violent liao.. caused her pain wif her ear-ring... sorry sorry sorry... >.<
it is a promise, i wont hurt u again. comfirm, guarantee and chop chop chop!!!

on the way hm on taxi.. feelin.. erm.. hhaa... unusual?? diao lar.. kkz.. that's all folks...

~me~ at 10:30 AM

Sunday, January 9

i do (cherish you)

All I am,
all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

(Chorus)
I do cherish yo
uFor the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all my heart
Til my dying day

~me~ at 1:54 AM

Saturday, January 8

woah... finally bloggin at hm in the dae... lolz~ now 145pm liao.. actually i juz woke up lar.. gt some prob wif neck.. ouch...

yesterdae, went to skool ard 10.. wahhaa.. lesson at 8 lor.. as usual, cant seem to wake up.. gonna change be4 chinese new year!! hump! im not lazy or pig, juz like to sleep... hahaha...

at skool leh, manage to complete 1 perscpective lor.. although haben render, hut should be alrite lar.. currently still gt prob rememberin the difference in height.. haiz~

ard 12, went wif yee and her friend to eat porridge at JE lor.. saw it the other time, eat alone oso weird weird.. so jio her lor.. since im the 1 jioin, of of cuz is my treat lar.. so no trouble at all.. afterall, pretty financially secured this week.. maybe the week after not so liao.. so enjoy now hor.. wahhaa..

after lunch, i was thinkin maybe go arcade for a while b4 headin back.. diao.. fun gt the better of mi... and we ended up playin whole dae!! cuz the arcade is pretty ulu, near the bank 1.. and it is 2 bucks per hour, play-all-u-want!! my favourite is the "rock fever3" lor.. the 1 wif 6 buttons and a leg pedal.. den tap the buttons to the music 1.. haiz~ onli can do NORMAL.. HARD still long way to go.. :P
after that, go work straight wif yee... (am i hopin for something to happen?? haiz~ even i dun understand kelvin.. so who does??)

at work todae, rite at the start i feel weird weird.. it is not the "common sian" in mi.. but i juz feel that my neck hurts.. dunno why.. could it be that i sprain it wifout knowin it?? but nvm.. dun feel that serious yet..
im stationed at my favourite again, the 50's!! woot!! although need to cover 5 tables alone, but i still enjoy!! wahaha~ no complains at all, although i need neglect a table, cuz the AUNTIE wear too little, see liao i will vomit... ahahah~

after work leh, send yee home.. as usual, she gana "bullied" by the captains and manager again.. they like to ask her to work until 11!! harlow.. if she where to work this late, she will hav no bus back!! this time round, it is like, they didnt ask, and "assume" she's gonna work until 11.. diao rite??

there are alot more things to write.. but, sometime, things are better keep in the heart.. that's all folks..

~me~ at 1:45 PM

Friday, January 7

woops... bloggin in the nitez again... nothing special liao...

2dae leh, went to goh's lesson half-heartedly.. as usual... but this time round like abit more sian.. dunno is the lesson borin or im simply not in the mood.. haiz~ den oso, the WORK MANAGER thingy i oso nv do.. suddenly sae need to pass up.. diao.. no choice lor, go hm piar..

lunch leh, cant be bothered to ask ani1 liao.. haiz~ dunno why, but todae realli enjoy bein alone... hmm... mood swing?? wahahaha... PMS!!! waahahah~~ so hor, went to fc alone and eat pizza lor..

after lunch is larry's lesson ler.. he sae that the movie veri nice.. a MUST watch thing.. but hor, sorri lar, 2dae, erm.. nthin seems "ok" for mi lar.. so at the start, already turn off... sometime i realli think i should stop lettin my emotion carry mi away.. but den... haiz~ maybe after NS i will so more tie shi xin chang ba... halfway thru, i ciaoz liao..

after that leh, met yee to go watch phantom of opera lor.. heard frm gilbert, as well as some other friends that the storyline veri good, den oso romantic, so dun mind goin to watch.. overall, the show realli not bad, but no sub-titles.. thus, i think i miss alot of parts cuz my english understandin still pretty weak... this is the 1st movie the sing so many times.. even normal talkin are thru singin!! juz like an opera sia.. hhaa.. 2dae 4gt to buy popcorn, aniwae, i already but princles spicy and put in my big bag liao... hhhaa.. heard yee sae she wanna eat alot of time at work liao... but marina nv sell.. so no choice.. :p
actually wanted to clear some doubts 1... but den hor, the show so romantic.. dun wanna waste it lor.. haiz~

after the show, send yee home lor.. 176... at last, words came out frm my mouth.. although yee feel veri sudden (she sae 1 lor) but den hor.. ive been wantin to sae a long time ago liao.. juz cant pick up the courage... hhaa.. the response oso not veri good.. guess i realli pick the wrong time to sae things again... but at least, i think it is pretty clear ler ba.. maybe i misunderstood, and i do hope i hear it wrongly, but i dun think the response is in any way, positive... haiz~
den we chit chat until her house lor...

on the way back ard 7 le.. feelin veri mixed, so i call a few friends to go LAN gamin lor.. hopefully can pull mi away... at least for a while ba... nah.. it's not helpin.. den go home immediately lor.. maybe sleepin helps?? nv even eat dinner or bath, rush to my bed and try to sleep.. lie on bed for an hour or so ba... nothing happens... onli think more.. diao... den something strucks mi.. FOOD... food might help!! hha... ard the same time yee sms mi... actually wanted to call her and chit chat de.. but scare todae's weird mood... dunno might sae wrong stuff anot.. so hor.. hhahaa.. pretty fu yan.. sorri yee...
and so, mi went to s11 and eat chicken chop.. den still buy sotong mee... den roti prata.. den teh peng.. eat until so shiok.. wahahaa... did help mi "trance" for a while.. but upon digestion, went back normal liao.. haiz~ plz.. dun make mi go back to my last time... isolation and drownin myself wif smokes and beers..

p.s. aiyah.. think can confess here lar.. i do smoke... 1st time in sec1.. although dun like the smell due to sub-concious, but den it helps mi "fly"... manage to pull away frm the gang and enter a "guai" lifestyle... almost started back smokin durin poly, but by now, understand how bad it is ler... and oso noe most girls dun like smokers, so try my best lor, even gt, oso nobody sees den do it.. the smell still annoys mi.. it was durin workin the other time, did i finally noe why i hate smoke so much... due to unpleasant childhood, and the smell still lingers behind my mind.. but this memory furthers stop mi frm goin back... yea man.. the details leh.. hhaa.. not many ppl noe ba.. not even my bros.. wahahaha~

kkz... will end here ba.. 1.10am liao sia... haiz~ stop thinkin ba.. (how to stop an aquarian frm thinkin?? answer? kill him..)

~me~ at 1:15 AM

Wednesday, January 5

change my background music again...

hump.. 2dae reach skool at ard 0830, suppose to be my earliest this sem liao ba... den hor, nv mark attendance... basket... so the whole dae, sit at my own corner lor.. play neopets ar... see friendsters ar.. but still gt do abit of work of cuz.. ard 12 pluz, went to FC2 wif leslie and jack for lunch.. haiz~ so many ppl.. sian.. waitin time realli hard to kill sia.. den les began to crap lor... wad there are many girls to see lar.. by chance, we saw mabel.. lolz~ leslie cannt observe other thing liao.. onli comment on mabel's erm.. those who noe mabel will noe wad.. wahahaha~ tiko..

after lunch at t5, met yee and xueting to go JE play game... cuz i still haben gt over the loss last thursdae... lolz~ as usual, i take game seriously... that is why i like to treat life as a game... it is fun, excitin, and im serious in dealin them... spend ard 15 bucks ba... hhaa.. nv realli gt to 1-on-1 yee.. onli play wif her friend june.. haiz~ so messy rite?? nvm lar... mi juz manage to sell some WCCF cards... so if im able to off-load all, should hav ard 300 bucks ba... although nt alot, but enuff to "enjoy" a while baa... haa.. frankly speakin, seein the way these 3 friends play realli bring mi more pleasure den i play wif yee alone.. hahaha... they realli reminds mi of my daes in sec school, where my friends all frequent the bowling alley... haiz~ memories can onli be memories... the bowling alley already become k-box and k-pool... my best friends already "missing".. wad more can i sae?? we play the game where there are 2 joystick 1... forgt the name lar.. den everytime i play, sure will sweat 1... dunno why.. haiz~ den 2dae lost again... sad... after that, i went to try para-para... haiz~ im realli born wif lead shoe.. cant dance means cant dance... am i realli good for nothing?? haiz~

after that, we went to mac.. hmm.. onli sit there eat fries, chit-chat, slack lor... haiz~ smokers... i almost lost control again... phew.. keep cool keep cool... den she smoke.. erm.. erm.. haiz~ diao? haiz~ haiz~ haiz~ dunno.. mixed feelin... sianz~ the whole changing point is where this sales girl came onli to sell "organic" perfume, explainin there are no alcohol in their perfume, and give us all sort of "discount".. wadever... this 3 girls didnt sae anything... den mi onli fancy the adidas 1... haiz~ den reject her lor.. she realli FRIENDLY sia.. until i scare.. but initially im stonin, so hack lor.. ard 4 pluz, xueting had to go work liao.. june accompany her, den i accompany yee to her home seh.. was thinkin of makin myself clear abt our current situation, but sky so bright, abit wrong atmosphere.. haiz~ send her home, all the way crap lor.. somehow feel like stay this way better, like "no reponsibility" like dat... duno how to explain lar.. *sigh..

went home, dun wanna think, juz lie on my bed and go orh orh.. best way to escape reality ba.. wen wake up, den realise yee msg mi.. haa.. paiseh paiseh.. den i plan to call her at ard 10, chat chat lor.. (p.s. ive actually overcome my phone-shyness liao.. wahaha~) details i dun sae much lar... but at least i manage to get the idea of "wad we are" now... erm... although my resolution is to be "bad guy" this year, guess that is veri hard for mi ba... breakin up others... haiz~ so not mi... wadever wadever... wad the f*** am i thinkin?? sianz to the max... vex like shit?? nah.. cant be mi.. some1 as xiao sa as kelvin, where gt put this thing in mind 1.. haaha... enuff wif my crappin liao... juz now watch "helsing" at central... the anime not bad sia.. abt vampire 1!! maybe go find the vcd and slowly watch ba.. although abit gruesome... hhaa.. bloody sia...

guezz that's all ba.. haiz~ thinkin hurtz.. how many of my brain cells die liao??

~me~ at 11:26 PM

aiyo... jan 5th liao den i do new year resolution... but nvm lar.. late better den nv... haaa... at least some of last year's seem fulfiled, like "earn abit money" lar, "dun pass christmas and new year alone" lar... etc etc.. hhaa... diao..

here goes...
-be a bad guy!! (good ppl never has good ending, neither does the bad, but at least the bad can enjoy before they suffer, where the good will normally suffer until they die...)
-find a gf be4 army.. (wahaha.. same every year... a "MUST-PUT" resolution...)
-money, money and more money.. (wif great money comes great responsibility...)
-pass napfa wif flying colors... (den can enjoy 2months more be4 NS..)
-get diploma.. (nowadaes attendance abit worryin... haiz~)
-grow up.. (i feel im still pretty childish... agree?)
-stonger.. (cuz im stronger, den yesterdae~~~)

kkz, back to bloggin.. again, in the middle of the nite..

2dae no skool, at home rot lor.. look at butter paper oso dunno wad to draw.. look at model oso dunno wad to add.. sian.. brain-dead... goh ask mi to go scout for pictures, but.. haiz~ dunno why, the whole abit, erm, super diao.. might be due to.. erm.. not seein some1?? CANT BE CANT BE!!! IM NOT THAT WEAK!!! wadever~~~ hump!

at ard 12, already plan to go out liao.. walk walk ard amk central... nothin to do.. actually i planned to buy a jacket, but den, some1 told mi if i treat her too good, she might be scared.. den nvm lor.. can save up... wahahha~ (kiddin kiddin..) anyway, i reckon that if i lend yee my spare jacket, she wont mind ba.. frankly speakin, i hav quite a number of jackets.. but mostly veri O-piang... that is why i normally onli wear long-sleeves.. long-sleeves wise, wah... my whole cabinet lor.. cuz i scare cold, so everytime buy cloth will look for long-sleeves... den again, in t5, im controllin the aircon in my area, every now and den will off it... so, why bother?? hahha... mi dun need to scare of cold liao wad... :P

walk walk liao leh, dunno why, simply walk into the barber... (10 bucks quickcut.. mi poor lar..) den nvm lor.. since at here liao, cut cut lor.. so, now back to short short hair le.. dunno gt look more handsome anot?? hmm... nah.. hahaha~ zhun zhun after barber, yee sms mi.. diao.. why these daes so qiao 1... details will not be exposed lar.. haahaa..

after that went to arcade a while, den go work ler... as i said be4, 2dae realli feelin moody.. (even cut hair oso dunno why..) at the start, i was stationed to food run... so happy, cuz 2dae sure no ppl 1, food runnin sure can slack.. somemore i so low on morale, maybe can stone more... instead, xiao peng, another waiter, didnt turn up.. ended up i hav to cover his position outdoor.. haiz~ sometimes i realli wonder, why every now and den, onli im the 1 that changes here and there... come to think of it, i can almost go into any position.. pro huh? nah.. pro waiter wont do mi any good...
there are realli few customers comin in 2dae lor.. might be due to rumors that spread ard thru sms ba.. lolz~ the 1 that tell ppl nt to eat seafood... den, captain told us that our crabs are frm vietnam and phillipines... diao... HA! HA! HA! newbies maybe buy it lar... but den for mi.. erm.. well, all i can sae is that the captain tried her best.. hhaa..
even though not many ppl, i still able to drag until 1030.. pro slacker!! hhaa... easy money~~

kkz... end here ler ba.. if not dunno tml can wake up anot... so long nv on time, at least on time once oso happy ba...
(p.s. comin to 4th week ler, but i feel that my total "on-time" attendance cant even add up 1 week...)

~me~ at 2:18 AM

Tuesday, January 4

kitten on my handphone 
~me~ at 12:04 PM

bloggin in the middle of the nite again... dun think this will keep on any longer.. body seems weakenin liao.. not enuff rest ba..

2dae leh, usual monday blue... already woke up at 6 liao, but still... cool weather bid mi to dream again.. my mom smack mi on the face oso no use sia.. haiz~ dunno wad she's plannin to do liao... scare scare... cuz she threaten mi 2dae.. if im goin to be late for skool again, she's gonna do some action... haiz~ mother threaten son.. kaoz~

go to skool leh, new idea regardin the facaqe of NCO club.. sketch quite abit lor... den i show goh, den not much of comment lor... not bad sia.. think my brain might still be workin.. later heard frm gilbert that NCO buildin can hav 3000 setbacks and normal highrise can hav up to 7500... thx for the info.. learn more liao..

went to work after dat... dunno is luck or wad, yee msg mi while im on my way to mrt.. for some gut feel, i juz turn towards the glass area and walk away frm gate, juz to continue smsin.. den when i suddenly look up, 1st sight saw yee at the bus-stop liao... it is so... erm... "diao" rite?? where gt so zhun thing sia... at 1st still not so sure, but when saw her giggle, noe liao.. onli she giggle such "weird" posture... wahahaa... den her friend xt by the side oso veri "outstanding"... lolz~ (p.s i veri bad sia...) between us leh, maybe movin into deeper friendship ba.. i oso dunno lar... been doin too many stupid things these daes.. 2dae listen to radio den understand wad are the wrong thing ive been doin to yee.. hahaa... sorri hor.. thousands apologies... miss ya..

went to work after that.. quite sian as usual.. might be due to the weather ba.. rain and rain and rain... "who is heaven cryin for??" anywae, today's part-timers are realli insufficient ar.. i gana stationed air-con pluz vip room.. haiz~ hate it.. but no choice.. food runnin onli 2 person, normally 3 or 4, so u can imagine how stress they will be when all food come out at 1 go.. darn.. brain not workin... muz be due to the whiskey ba... bad bad bad...

kkz.. guess that's all folks.. enjoy the jokes...

~me~ at 1:44 AM

Monday, January 3

every1 so stress.. here here.. some more jokes... (some are pretty true though...)

-Before borrowing money from a friend, decide which you need more.
-Death is hereditary.
-Never argue with a fool. People might not know the difference.
-When you're right, no one remembers. When you're wrong, no one forgets.
-Everyone makes mistakes. The trick is to make them when nobody is looking.
-Always borrow money from a pessimist. He won't expect it back.
-Where there's a will there are five hundred relatives.
-Everybody wants to go to heaven, but nobody wants to die.

and a more lame 1...

This is a story of a Red Indian couple who just got married. After six months, the wife has not conceived. So the couple went to seek the help of the Red 'Chief' who is also the tribe's medicine man.
Indian said to the chief: "Many moons come, many moons go; I come, baby no come, how come?"
Chief to Indian: "Young man, go to the ninth mountain over there and come back after nine months".
After nine months the Indian came back to the village. He went to his tepee and saw his wife carrying a baby.
At once he pulled the wife to see the Chief. He said to the Chief: " Many moons come, many moons go, I no come, baby come, how come?"
The Chief turned to the wife for an answer. The wife said: "Many moons come, many moons go, you no come, many men come, baby come".

~me~ at 2:23 PM

Four friends reunited at a party after 30 years. After a few laughs and drinks, one of them had to go to the rest room. The ones who stayed behind began to talk about their kids and their successes.

The first guy says: I am very proud of my son, he is my pride and joy. He started working at a very successful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration soon he was promoted and began to climb the corporate ladder becoming the General Manager and now he is the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes Benz for his birthday.

The second guy says: Damn, that's terrific!! My son is also my pride and joy, I am very proud of him. He started working at a traveling agency for a very big airline. He went to flight school to become a pilot and also manage to become a partner in the company where he now owns the majority of the assets. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday.

The third guy says: Well, well, well congratulations!! My son is also my pride and joy and he is also very rich. He studied in the best universities and became an Engineer. He started his own construction company and became very successful and a multimillionaire. He also gave away some thing very nice and expensive to his best friend for his birthday. He built a 30,000 sq ft mansion specially for his friend.

The three friends congratulated each other mutually for the successes of theirs sons.

The fourth friend who earlier had gone to restroom returned and asked: What's going on, what are all the congratulations for? One of the three said: We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons. And then he asked, What about your son?

The fourth man replied: My son is Gay and he makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub.

The three friends said: What a shame that must be, that is horrible, what a disappointment you must feel.

The fourth man replied: No, I am not ashamed. Not at all. He is my son and I love him just as well, he is my pride and joy. And he is very lucky too. Did you know that his birthday just passed and the other day he received a beautiful 30,000 sq ft mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes Benz from his three boyfriends?

~me~ at 1:54 PM

juz reached home frm work... 2dae realli rain whole dae lor.. the whole morning lar.. den afternoon go out oso rain.. at nite work oso rain.. haiz~ reflects my mood?? lolz~

early in the afternoon, started to do abit of perspective... but draw 2, den sian liao.. so went bath and go out liao.. den suddenly feel like goin LAN shop.. let see.. ever since sec. school, nv play CS liao lor... hahaha... my nick been idle for quite a while liao ba... haaa.. so 2dae go play play lor... onli 1.60 per hour wad.. so nvm lor... dunno why, the control seem so easy yet so difficult.. it is like, i seems to be able to control, yet, not that comfortable... even when enemy suddenly jump out in front of mi, i get scare and gan chiong.. haaa... but for 1 thing, my skills still there ba.. cuz in every map i play, still manage at least top3... (10 vs 10)...

den go to work ard 5... at work 2dae leh... HAHA! gana my fav. position, to do service at the 50's... why?? becuz at the 50's, which is outdoor, is the onli area where service station is veri near to all the tables.. somemore the ground here are considered the most stable ba.. other area in the outdoor are pretty bumpy... even though i hav 2 look after 5 tables at 1 go (normally is 3 at other area..) but i feel quite alrite... another reason i like there is that seldom will the captain come ka jiao lor.. i hate it when they tok cock like "u better look after this table.. that table hor.." harlow... if realli wan it to be look after VERI WELL... plz.. do it urself... basket... my floor manager like to sae that when busy, captains tend to be over stress and might shout or tok loud at us, it is juz human of them, so we muz REN... should he sae this again, HA! HA! HA!... i think i already noe how to reply liao... "so when busy, onli captains are human?? wad are we den?? animals?? that can be HU HER upon??" :P

juz now send yee home again.. normally onli send her to bukit batok, but 2dae send her to her apartment liao... frm BB, took 176 lor... i think abt 6 or 7 bus-stop ba.. nv count, cuz we busy crappin all the way... lolz~ yee gettin lamer sia... cant ever differentiate finger frm thumb!! haiz~ still dare to argue... so embarassin rite?? :P

after that, took taxi back.. it is not that there are no more bus or mrt liao.. juz that i wanna find out wad is the fast time i can reach her frm my house... approx 20mins lor... cuz at nite not much of a traffic, and the taxi-driver is driving pretty fast... ard 80 km/h ba.. next time muz try ard 6pm... when there are pretty heavy traffic, den can be more comfirm wif the timin...

kk... juz change my background song liao.. this one oso not bad... original singers are the best!! kkz... guess hav 2 end here liao... if not tmr how to wake up??!! c",?

~me~ at 1:55 AM

Sunday, January 2

darn... wake up at 12 plus again... haiz~ not my fault wad... nowadaes rain so much, wifout aircon oso so shiok.. somemore i dun wear shirt to slp... of cuz cannt wake up lar.. haa...

2dae morning actually gt soccer 1... but due to the rain, gana cancelled liao... my bro told mi that this rain started ard 8 pluz... until now haben stop... wah...

yea.. finally added music in my blog liao... cant find zhao chuan's and ah du's... haiz~ f4 can lar... those that dun fancy, dun hav to bombard... it is not that i like f4 or wad, juz that this song pretty meaningful to mi... read the lyrics, not the way the singer sing it lar... if u can do better, good for u all lor..

waited... but no one chio mi out... think maybe later go play LAN?? go out walkin alone is definitely out... somemore now rainin... haiz~ slack at home oso sian... play online game, dunno why, keep laggin out.. muz be the adware fault.. maybe i gana virus or sumthing?? dunno lar... no surf porn oso gana... wad in the world internet is gettin to!!! NOT FAIR MAN!!! if surf porn, gana, nothing to sae... now everytime online onli play GB, friendster, blog, email... like dat oso tio... haiz~

nothing to sae liao... see later gt anymore "qi yu" den blog tonite ba... take care... c",?

~me~ at 1:32 PM

3.36am... bloggin in the middle of the nite again... after work, send yee home... den took the last train back amk lor.. as usual, stomach roars.. went s11 to eat chicken chop... after that leh... again, went to walk walk... suddenly drizzle, seek shelter at the playground... lie down there for a while before heading home and blog...

today at work leh.. wah.. super siong... gana stationed to do pure food running... frm the start, till the end, i onli manage to took 1 break and drink abit of water... the whole dae run here run there... food seems never endin.. basket... wan to help others oso cannt find time..
for yee leh.. hhaa.. she finally out frm the captain's "torture" liao... and we found out the reason why.. hahaa... cuz they gt new target to pick upon... poor auntie...

yee been smokin these 2 daes... the last time she was behavin like this was when she was pretty sick.. she did sae that smokin sort of destress her.. wad can i do?? persuasions not helpin.. i can onli help out by giving sweets ba.. but still need to seek more other options... hmm... jia you jia you jia you!!! (p.s. ive strong will not to smoke due to unhappy past.. although gt the urge, but the past experience realli stops mi...) den juz now she threw away the pack in front of mi hor... told mi that she's been smokin too much lately... hhaa... i dun care if im bluffin myself, but i like to see it as she threw away for other reason.. heehe.. (if im dreamin, dun let mi wake up.. thx god...)

hahahaa.. mi cant stop laughin sia.. juz now when sendin yee home, all the while both of us are complainin how bad we work 2dae... the whole atmosphere was pretty negative sia... den chat chat chat... she gt into so "hi" that the sweet in her mouth drop out at the mrt sia... wahahaa... so embarassin... i immediately siam of cuz!! hhaa.. kiddin lar.. how can let her paiseh alone... hahaa... everything was so positive after that... dunno why... sendin her home seem so much more fun and faster... frm marina to bukit batok to amk.. hhaa... enjoy enjoy.. finally gt some1 can crap frm earth to heaven wif mi liao.. kaoz~

nothing to do... pick out quite a no. of old cds to listen lor.. juz suddenly feel like lor.. gt 98 degree lar.. gt s-club 7 lar.. gt F4 lar (lolz~).. etc... but still, zhao chuan's ai yao zhe me shuo chu kou strucks mi most.. 2nd by ah du's th yi din heng ai ni.. 3rd by jerry yen's wo shi zhen de zhen de heng ai ni... lolz~ all chinese song.. maybe im still not so attracted to english song ba...

lastly, some1 sms mi this: whoever u saw last in 04, and 1st in 05, and if u are the 1 that he/she last saw and 1st seen, the 2 of u will be bless.. diao... believe it or not?? hhahaa...

kkz.. guess i will end here liao.. 4am liao sia.. somemore tmr 9 plus still gt soccer... at nite still workin.. wooo... boy am i strong.. lolz~ (p.s. are teochew ppl realli proud, and hokkien veri exaggratin?? if so, im mixed... wahahaha...)

~me~ at 3:36 AM

Saturday, January 1

woo.. juz woke up sia.. now 1.50pm liao... kaoz~

last nite at work veri shitty lor.. 1st of all, need to work in VIP and oso do food runnin at the same time... actually should be pretty easy for mi 1.. but the prob is that the room is damn small... approx 4500 by 4500 onli... den last nite 12 ppl... kaoz~ lucky they are friendly, so easy to do lor...

den after they leave, manager call mi to prepare the table for 15!!! kaoz~ today outside super busy, somemore rainin, so plates, bowls.. accessories, all need to go scavage... den when i finally prepare liao, he told u the clients wan to change outside... OK! nvm... i LUN... i took all the stuff out and prepare the tables outside... den when all done liao.. he sae dun need to do liao, client cancel the appointment liao!!!! WAH... kaoz~ to the MAX..

den realli buae lun liao... went to outdoor see any1 i can "release" my fed-up upon... den suddenly saw yee... wah.. her face more fierce and fed-up den mi lor.. muz hav been stepped on the tail lor... by lookin at her angry face, my prob like solve liao... haa.. maybe i realli sarcastic lar, but see her like dat, i can reveal my temper?? later long beach explode how?? haha... later found out that she has been accused of not workin properly again.. frankly speakin, she has been pick upon by alot of captains and managers in marina.. haiz~ maybe onli we team up den she can be pretty safe frm sarcasm ba... :P
my solution for her: dun do things TOO well... do is do, but den, if can divide the job, divide it! take clearing of table for example, if u think u will need at least 2 times to clear them all, either find some1 to help, OR divide it and make sure the 2 times u carry ard the same weight... DUN have to clear "AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE" wad... den 2nd round take so little... as the sayin goes, work hard, but oso work smart...

last nite nv eat supper prepared by the kitchen... congee again sia... sianz~ den send yee yee home... den go s11 eat supper lor... thinkin of eatin chicken chop de... but in the end eat roti prata, 2 egg 2 kosong... den still hungry... eat raman.. finally satisfy, go home and bong bong... dunno why, feel super awake after my bath... haiz~ muz be festive mood.. or could it be that im thinkin too much again?? hhaa... but nvm, this time i clever, grab the whiskey and drink a cup lor... i think my jiu liang veri lousy lor.. juz a diluted glass.. and i slp until now... diao... will i become a jiu gui?? whahahaha...

heard frm yee that if we were to work for the govenment (teacher lar, police lar..) we can onli vote for the government... if so, where is the democracy that was promised?? i agree to the "communist" democracy that we are practicin now... but think abt it, arent our government doin their job well? i mean, see all those that they hav done for us, frm english as primary language, to high enducation, to low crime rate... etc... im not takin sides!! wadever society or groups, there are bound to hav black sheeps... so why bother wif them? frankly speakin, it seems that onli bad guys live long... good guys all die be4 the bad guys lor... hmm.. maybe i should be bad guy too??? ahhahaa...

that's all for 2dae ba... now still long frm goin 2 work... dunno wad to do sia... maybe do the 10 perspective for mondae ba... suddenly feel like workin hard liao... c",?

~me~ at 1:49 PM